I recognize the eternal movement of the Universe as a deep primordial knowing within myself. It is a souls journey where one never arrives but ever evolves on their own path. No Ray of sunlight is ever lost.
Along the way my heart has been broken open and I am at what feels like the edge of loss and love at all times. The hard truth is that the gift of loving comes with the risk of loss. When grief comes in all its glory I recognize it as the highest form of honoring love. At times it’s masked as a slow stabbing of the heart, seemingly draining the life force within. But I have learned a new perspective and find an ironic beauty about this space. Like love, it is where all of life’s possibilities can arise. I used to brace myself each time the waves of loss would come, but lately I just sit as it washes over me and let it languish me in the bittersweet irony of existence. I find myself standing in the proverbial fire where I emerge anew. I transmute pain and suffering into healing and peace for the growth of my own soul. I have found through selfless service that my purpose is to help heal others both individually and collectively and to cultivate be-ing love, receiving love, giving love,..I am love.
A very dear spiritual healer recently told me that it was an amazing gift to have all these feelings of love and loss and to feel them fully. I am so much more expansive and so grateful for the remembering to feel things without judging or labeling them as good or bad. To be fully alive is to feel the whole spectrum. With every breath we are gifted an opportunity to have an all encompassing experience. To limit or edit our feelings is to dampen the Light of life.
To be able to still feel butterflies in your belly for the sweetness of new love, to feel the ache of compassion for a lovers last breath, to marvel at the night sky filled with celestial bodies that burnt out millions of years ago, to connect with your soul partner through deep meaningful inquiry, breathtaking prose and musical notes, to travel to sacred sites humbled by the Divine, to feel the electricity of such vibrant life force through a single kiss, to sit together and meditate in peaceful silence...
Although I’ve grown in so many ways through great loss, I recognize that it is through intimate relationship that we grow the most both spiritually and emotionally. Releasing attachment to the outcome and exhaling fully into the arms of a lover, unconditionally and without fear of saying goodbye.
My heart is aching for my twin flame, my soul partner, my Shiva. To be in a highly conscious relationship in this limited time on Earth and in this physical body, to know the highest Truths and deepest unconditional love. To be unedited in every facet, to be unleashed sexually, to know unequivocal joy, compassion, kindness and reverence for each other.
I listen to how the Universe is speaking to me, watching the way things unfold. I manifest my own hearts path, living my dharma while actively awakening my soulmate’s journey to intersect mine. To see and hear the Universe through their heart-song, to sit in silence and intuit their soul...and to finally come Home.